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In Which We Do Not Rock Out


Diane von Austinburg decided on a whim to come out and visit me. Actually she came out to check on the tag sale a friend of ours claimed he was going to regale us with. I was very dubious any such sale might ever actually materialize, but I’m always delighted to host Diane. So I was sort of a collateral visit. SPOILER ALERT: no tag sale happened.

Coincidentally, I had snagged two tickets for the B-52’s farewell tour. The B-52s were a very important part of the wacky years I spent in New Orleans. I loved their music and the joie de vivre they expressed. Diane has long claimed she and I went to one of their concerts in Austin even though I don’t remember it, but then, there’s lots of stuff from those years that I don’t remember. So Diane was here, the band was here, I had spectacularly great tickets (9th row center,) it was meant to be.

And then, it didn’t happen. All along we both acknowledged how very unlikely it was that we would actually make it to the concert that night. My bad back, the fact that neither of us are wild about being around strangers, and just general inertia were all conspiring against us.

Even more was the sense that the time for whooping it up at a rock show had passed me by. My best friend Magda shared my passion for the B-52s and in fact, the very first time he and I hung out was at one of their shows. Magda died 7 years ago and I still miss the old thing. In fact, pretty much all of my friends from those heady years have passed on to the other side of the grass. And so the idea that a B-52’s show would be haunted by their ghosts was just a little more than I could face. So we stayed home and played Boggle and reveled in the comfort of being old farts.

guys who do not have to worry about being old farts. NOT YET.

I know he’s not nekkid (so unfortunate) but this is a birthday present for Mikey from Chaturbate

This guy does not seem to go with shocking pink. It’s just not his color.

This guy, who I keep referring to as “That guy” is actually named Jake Andrews. You’re welcome.

Welcome to the North Pole. Enjoy your visit.


Penis, penis on the wall

Mr. Rhino Horn is in the house.

That devilish eyebrow

In Which We Are Shook


Oy. My day started with an earthquake, a medium sized one about an hour south of here. For an earthquake, that is still plenty close enough to give San Francisco (and me) a good jiggle. It lasted long enough to jostle me awake and then continued until I finally thought “what is that shaking?” At which time it stopped and I realized, oops, earthquake.

The few times earthquakes here have penetrated my oblivion, my reaction is typically “oops.” I almost never feel them, which is okay with me. There really isn’t much you can do anyway. I know you’re supposed to get under like a table, but if the building is falling on your head, I’m not sure how much that crappy desk from IKEA is going to do for you anyway.

As soon as there is an earthquake you know immediately what your topic of conversation is going to be for the rest of the day. Everyone you meet will ask “did you feel it?” This is a mere pretext; they are not genuinely interested in your temblor experience. They’re just waiting to be able to launch into what they felt, what they thought, what they heard, what their cat felt, what their boyfriend felt, what their boyfriend’s roommate felt and on and on. I have long since decided to just let them have at it, to recount their shaky story in as much detail as they want to wring from it. It’s just one of the reasons people like me so much.

I also had to go to the dentist for teeth cleaning so that was my fabulous day. The lady who cleaned my teeth, the receptionist, the barista, the Uber driver, the other Uber driver all asked if I felt it and after I said yes, dove into their own experiences. That’s fine, it’s what I’m here for, earthquake therapy. Maybe I should charge.

guys who can make you feel the earth move:

Soft focus, soft dick

A speedo that flashes a bit o’ crack is just the right size.

I think this guy has visited us before, but he is well worth a second look.

Some times, often, in fact, PhotoShop is just egregious.

Especially when there are cute guys with human-sized dicks, like this one, available.


“Oh, you know, just hangin around. What about you?” Words that have started soooo much trouble.

Sometimes guys that you should DEFINITELY avoid are the very most alluring ones.

Well, OK. If you say so.

In Which We Check on Our Ancestors


Perhaps you’ve heard about DNA analysis. It’s all the rage these days, much like Ouija boards were in the ’20s, and probably just as reliable. I decided my DNA surely needed analyzing, despite my ancestry being obvious at a glance. No one could spend any time with me and not be sure that I am nothing more than an average mongrel white boy.

Still I’m always up for any kind of parlor game and so I mailed my spit off to the analyzers and promptly forgot all about it. A few weeks later an email popped up with my results. SPOILER ALERT: I’m a white boy.

The DNA guys tarted up my answers with all kinds of graphs and statistics, percentages of this, percentages of that. I suppose that’s the analytic part. The main bit was a map supposedly showing whence my forebears sprang. You could pretty much use the same map for a number of purposes like The Land of Potatoes and Cabbage. Those are my people all right, the cabbage eaters.

Also please note the wide swath of Scandinavia it includes. You know what that means don’t you? VIKINGS, baby. Rape, pillage, and potatoes; that’s me.

So yeah pretty much no surprises. It even affirms something some guy told me one long ago night at the tubs. He said to me, he said, “you look Finnish,” which seemed either incredibly astute or incredibly random. And yet, now comes news that I am, in fact, 1% Finnish. Like I said, anyone can guess my genes just by looking at me, even when I’m naked at the baths.

Guys I wish I was naked at the bath with right now:

Sweet, smiley and stiff. What could be better?

Sorry, I’m gonna be busy in the toilet for a while.


If that were real, he would fall over every time he got a hardon. Which would be OK with me.

Singin’ in the shower.

You know he’s still his mother’s baby.

In Which We Travel


So what has that lovable scamp, mrpeenee, been up to? In an extremely unlikely turn I decided I wanted a vacation, a trip to far away places, or, at least, Texas. And so a week later I was chowing down on some excellent enchiladas with Diane von Austinburg in Old Austin town.

It was a wonderful little vacation, and by that I mean that no one required me to do anything. I’ve come to realize other people travel in order to master some mountain or expand their horizons or improve themselves in some way. I just go sleep in some other bed. And I am here to report the beds in the Hotel Zaza in Austin are first rate.

And it’s a good thing they were since I felt sick and sort of zombie-fied the first couple of days I was there. The only seats available on the flight there were in the very first row where the bulkhead is close enough to the seating that I couldn’t stretch my legs out. By the time we got to Austin I felt like my backbone had been yanked out and stuffed back in the wrong way around. But that passed, thank you substantial naps, and I was able to indulge my passion for Mexican food. Oh such excellent enchiladas. Diane and I cooked at her place one night and guess what we made? ENCHILADAS. I love traveling with a theme.

So that was pretty much it, naps and Mexican food, the perfect vacation. We also went to an exhibit at the Blanton art museum. The show was kind of a disappointment, but the museum’s collection of contemporary art is first rate. I loved it. They have a very strong suite of mid-century abstract paintings each of which is a masterpiece and the way they’re displayed together is brilliant.

I had a wonderful time, thanks to Diane for being the consummate hostess and for putting up with my lollygagging ways.

Men I might travel far for:

You know my weakness for dopey looking kids with big whackers.

Also, my weakness for big, meaty foreskins you can pinch. Heehee

Today’s post is brought to you by dopey looking guys. It’s a theme.

Ooh, a very rare blonde daddy.

Satiny skin, always a favorite.

Not a brain in his head. Do you care? I certainly don’t care.

In Which We Get Low Down


AT last, my secret shame must be told; I was a teenage tubist.

It’s true, as a child, I played tuba. 7 years in junior high and high school. I started out on the French horn but was so bad they transferred me to the lowest basses, which are sort of the slow kid of the orchestra. “How bad can he be?” was the logic. Turns out, pretty bad.

I never learned how to read music. I know what the individual notes represent and what the sundry symbols and notations mean and what the time of the piece is and all that other esoterica, I just never figured out how to put it all together to be a song. Instead, I was able to teach myself how to play by ear. That might sound impressive, but in the world of school bands, it’s simply means you’re very much the short bus kid. It was rather like copying all your answers.

I didn’t mind, I enjoyed playing and my lack was not really apparent once I got one of the other guys to play the piece for me so I could imitate it. The few occasions when everyone else would be sight reading something, I would hold the horn up and move the valves like I was playing and just not blow any air through. I was lip syncing tuba.

The nadir of the experience each year was when we would audition for what chair we would hold. It would get to be my turn and I would cheerfully make some random noises and they would roll their eyes and put me in last chair, which pretty much had my name on it by the time I graduated.

This was sort of the first indication I had of how happy I would be leading a wastrel’s life. Lack of ambition and talent? Oh that would be mrpeenee over there at the end of the row. I would always have the rhythm of the song down pat and would never be out of tune so just listening to our section, you’d never really be able to tell I didn’t have the faintest idea of what was going on. Also, let me point out I scored an A in the class every year.

The only drawback to this happy state of affairs was the band director, Mr. Forque. What a Nazi that dick was. He demanded absolute dedication above any of your other schoolwork, and he got it, turning the band into a cult. He just ignored me, but he had a vile temper and would turn bright red when he screamed at everyone. The year after I graduated, his wife dumped him for screwing a student named Kathy, a sweet girl who was the first chair trumpet and a year younger than me. The school quietly shuffled him out and I believe they married.

A few years ago, Albert, who had been first chair tuba and the diametric opposite to me the entire time we were in school together, looked me up while he was in San Francisco and we went out to lunch. I was getting ready to launch into a assault on Mr Forque and what a blight he was, but Albert, sensing where the conversation was headed, cut me off to effuse over what a mentor the man had been to him, the father he had never had. Sort of cut my chat gambit right off. And no matter how discreetly I tried to dig up details about the Forque/Kathy scandal, he would not bite. Can you imagine how disappointed I was? Crushed sweetie, absolutely crushed.

Amazingly, Albert wound up returning to our high school after he graduated college as the new band director and apparently made a career of it there. Our 50th high school reunion is looming next summer and I’m planning to attend. Plenty of the kids I went to school with stayed in that miserable, nasty little town and I’m sure they have plenty of dirt about that Forque fucker and I plan on tracking down every grain that’s available.

guys whose horn I’d like to blow:

It’s too hot to write captions.

Besides, pictures like this pretty much write their own caption.

In Which We Are Appropriated


Let me share my outrage with you, yet again. Our story begins in New Orleans in 1985. Homogay mrpeenee is busy leading a happy, quiet homogay life when his puny attention is snagged by a snappy tune called Smalltown Boy by Bronski Beat.

And what a brilliant song it is. It’s the story of a young gay man thrown out of his home because he’s queer, everything he owns “in a little black bag” after already experiencing ostracism and gay bashing. Even those of us lucky enough to have avoided that extreme when we came out could still identify with the pain and the alienation and the fury in that song. Plus it had a really rockin beat.

The singer, Jimmy Somerville, is a role model, fierce and furious and pissed off and not willing to take any shit. He’s a humpy, short redhead (I’ve always had a weakness for them) and his videos dancing around to his music are very appealing, but the message in his songs was for his gay brothers to demand to live our lives unafraid. FUCK TOLERANCE, I DO NOT WANT TO BE TOLERATED. Oops, sorry, I got carried away.

Anyway. Try to imagine my feelings when Super Agent Fred sent me a video of Smalltown Boy covered by some yahoo, Marcus Layton. I’m not including it here because I don’t want it to get even a single more view. The cover is so unoriginal it might as well have been karaoke. The video itself is a classic of the “My cousin has a camera” with abrupt quick cuts of bland youth rollicking around some parking garage with a boosted grocery cart: urban but not too urban, we don’t want to have to mess with any riff raff. It is stripped of any politics in the original and it includes heterosexual humping just to rub salt in the disco wound.

Did anyone involved in this production ever listen to the original, could they have possibly understood the lyrics? Or did they just hear a song they liked, downloaded the lyrics from Google, and recorded their own stupid Brady Bunch cover.

I worry that some people vaguely think the struggle for gay equality is over, that somehow, the right to marry means that The Gays won and now we all can go back to not worrying. I got news for you. In living memory there was a time when simply being gay was illegal, not merely frowned upon or socially awkward. It was against the law and you could go to jail. Not just in some bum fuck rural outlier, but in London and New York. I worry that young people, young queers, think the fight is now about the right pronouns and including the right colors on the right flag. Our living an out life is not inalienable. A Supreme Court Justice recently included, in a draft decision for the court, the suggestion that attacking gay legal rights would be just peachy keen with him.

The kind of appropriation this cover represents, where the queer context of the song is erased, shows how easy it would be, in small encroaching ways, to shove us back into the good old days closet. Just like women and abortion, I can’t believe we’re still fighting this fight. Oh well. At least we know the words to the song.

Smalltown boys, naked edition:

Love them big boys.

You need to get out of the sun, baby.


It’s the peak of beachy weather. At least it is if you’re not living in San Francisco where it remains chilly.

oh, my dudes, I forgot to mention, on July 25, that it was the 15th anniversary of my little blog. Yay.

This seems to have been the first dick pic I published, from August 25, 2007. Another anniversary.

That first year, when I was much more apparently energetic, I cranked out fifty-four posts in one month.

I’m pretty sure I couldn’t think of 54 words now.

In Which We Recall a Legend


August 17th is the 30th anniversary of the death of Al Parker, the definitive gay porn icon. Parker claim to have invented the so-called Castroclone look so popular for gay men in the late ’70s; a fashion statement that included motorcycle boots, flannel shirts or t-shirts, and tight Levi jeans worn with no underwear the better to flaunt one’s junk. That was really the point of the look, everything else was just a frame. People would sand down the crotch to show off their bulge. If we could have contrived a neon arrow pointing towards it, I’m sure someone would have. Forty years later and I still see gay geezers tottering around the neighborhood cosplaying Al Parker.

He was a beautiful man with a big dick. In any culture, that is a winning combination, for gay men it is the jackpot. But in addition to his meat bonanza, he had beautiful big brown eyes, a luscious beard, chiseled cheekbones, and did I mention he was packing a hog?

I read his autobiography even though it was a challenge to get through. His writing was flat and he skipped over the most interesting details. Any autobiography is part truth and part bullshit; you could recognize when you got to a bullshit portion because he would suddenly try to write in a florid, descriptive style that completely missed. He claimed to have attended Woodstock and spent the entire time in a tricked out hearse with some Tom of Finland-esque biker. There were other flights of fantasy but I prefer to forget and forgive them.

I actually saw him once shortly after we moved here to San Francisco. He was driving through the Castro and I was on the sidewalk, we made eye contact and he drove on. I was thrilled. That was more than 30 years ago and I still am thrilled.

His real contribution to gay culture was through his porn. His films were an important part of the transition from furtive smut filled with homely hustlers to the dirty movies that helped inform gay men that they could be masculine and attractive and not ashamed. For that, I think we all owe him a debt and we should remember him, and is great big fat cock, fondly.

Some other fine examples of the Al Parker archetype:

A cowboy one for my niece Amber.

This guy, who shows up here a lot, but can you possibly have to much of him?

Arty and thick.

Parker’s work lead the way for smut featuring attractive leads like this youth, whose name eludes me.

Al Parker greatly regretted being circumcised, to the point that he tried, unsuccessfully to reverse it.

Big dicks. I, for one, always say yes, please.

In Which We Go to the Movies


Fans and friends of Mikey (aka Pussy Pants Bitch Boy) a few years ago formed the Chaturbate Sunday Night Movie Society so that we could all watch films online together the better to critique and bitch about them via text. It’s been very amusing, even the dogs, and there have been some real canines that we’ve been stuck with, but also some really great movies I wouldn’t have otherwise seen.

One of the things I’ve been struck by is something that might be called the new A list buddy movie. These are projects that pair a couple of important male movie stars that bicker and spar much like Katherine Hepburn and Cary Grant in classic screwball comedies, the difference being the Hepburn/Grant pairing resulted in cinema jewels while these new buddy movies are almost universally crap.

A partial list:

Tom Holland and Mark Wahlberg in Uncharted

Dwayne Johnson and Ryan Reynolds in Red Notice

Ryan Gosling and Chris Evans in The Gray Man

Ryan Reynolds and Samuel L Jackson in The Hitman’s Bodyguard

Channing Tatum, Brad Pitt, and Daniel Radcliffe (a rare three-way) in The Lost City

Charlie Hunnam and Mel Gibson in Last Looks

And those are just the ones off the top of my head; I feel like there’s other contenders for this list but it’s possible my mind just erased them in order to deal with cinematic PTSD.

All of these also have some nominal female lead, but in general she is so secondary to the action and focus she might as well be CGI. Of course there have always been buddy movies, but these seem to have upped the ante when it comes to the casts with both leads being much more major stars.

What’s sad about almost all of these is what dreadful movies they are. Really talented actors, enormous special effects budgets, fabulous locations: none of it can overcome the gibberish of a storyline that is more hole than plot and actors who are so obviously bored with their roles they might as well have been playing Candy Crush during the filming.

I suppose the idea of casting a pair such bankable leads was probably generated by the studios algorithms, certainly the scripts seem to have been written by some other algorithm and not a very good one at that. In some ways it’s infuriating to see so much money wasted. We’ve enjoyed much more several small movies whose total budgets probably wouldn’t have covered the coffee tab for these behemoth flops.

Men I’d like to be buddies with:

Choke that chicken

Maybe it’s PhotoShop, maybe it’s Maybelline.

No wonder my phone bill is so high.


Next to godliness.

A cowboy for Amber.

Goodness me.

I refuse to make some stupid “Batter up….” joke.

In Which We Are Crippled. Again


I went over to Secret Agent Fred’s place this evening and hung out with the dear old thing yucking it up and discussing the decline in porn quality the 21st century has brought. As I was leaving, I strode confidently down the five steps in his lobby only to discover there were, in fact, six steps which caused me to go tumbling through space and come to Earth less than gracefully.

It is a testimony to my vanity that immediately on landing I thought “Thank god nobody saw that,” even before I had time to see if anything was damaged. Once I was able to turn my attention to my frail bag of bones, I let out a ladylike cry of “Fucking fuck, that fucking hurt.”

I had somehow managed to land on both my right ankle and my left knee. I can only imagine it must have looked like some kind of figure skating technique gone horribly wrong. As I later mentioned to my old chum Brain, that meant that I couldn’t even limp properly. My knee is now purple and my ankle is swollen, or maybe it’s the other way around; I don’t even want to look to make sure.

This is just one more salvo in the ongoing campaign my own body has against me as I plow further into old age. In an earlier, simpler time, I might have emerged from this disaster shaken, but not actually mangled. It is only as the years go by that my fuselage has become so fragile. I get out of bed and my voyage to the toilet is a symphony of cracks and pops. I sound like a basket of kindling being thrown down the stairs, like a rhythm section warming up. Listen to me children, you do not want to get old. Kill yourself now, it’s the only sensible option.

I think I need a squadron of humpy young men to take care of me in my declining years. Guys like this maybe:

Sometimes a nice, hot bath is the only answer.

You cannot hide that from me, I have had too much experience tracking dicks down.

Buttchops like this need to be squeezed. Lovingly.

Put that phone down and come over here.

Goodness me, his butt is so massive, you can only tell he is wearing panties by seeing the image in the mirror.

Sometimes I choose to include Crimes of PhotoShop because they re so ludicrously amusing.

The Chaturbate gang and I are planning on watching a movie called Glorious, a horror movie centered on a glory hole. I think that’s a brilliant idea; every time I stuck my dick through one, I would briefly think “Is this the time the serial killer is going to bite off my wiener?”

I always liked sort of sweet, homely guys, especially if they came equipped with a big ol’ fat fatty.

Here’s another one. Mmmmm, meaty.

In Which We Stare Into The Void And The Void Puts On Googly Eyes And Stares Back


Okay this is so very not easy for me, but here goes. When I was 10 years old my brother, who was 8, was accidentally electrocuted right in front of me and died. I can’t explain how difficult it is for me publicly discuss that. After he died, my family never ever, not once, mentioned his name again. I absorbed that and lived my life with an enormous scar inside that I never spoke of. R Man and I were together for years before I told him; I’ve known Diane von Austinburg since 1978 and I only mentioned it to her last year.

I’ve decided recently that that behavior was just not healthy (duh) and that I could actually speak about him and the circumstances of his death without it being a crisis. I don’t regard it as a topic of conversation, but if it’s appropriate I’m trying to no longer reflexively avoid it either.

So here’s the point, the last time my friend the Fashion Sensation was visiting, we were discussing our siblings and in general yucking it up, but I decided I would tell her the whole sad story of my baby brother. She got a very distraught look on her face and said when she was 10 years old, her 8-year-old brother was accidentally electrocuted right in front of her and died. That sort of derailed the initial conversation, but did open up a whole new fascinating line of chat.

While it certainly was interesting to realize I have a good friend who understands so clearly the PTSD that a 10-year-old child can suffer and then live with the rest of his life, the whole Twilight Zone aspect of it was unsettling, to say the least. Was it proof of parallel universes? Mmmmmaybe. It also makes me wonder what other revelations I have missed by keeping the fucked up pain of his death bottled up like pus inside me.

And now, naked guys. Because I’m tired of this trauma being a boulder I have to push uphill while simultaneously ignoring it. It is what it is and what it is is simply a part of my life. I’m trying to get on and maybe naked guys help with that, OK?

If there had been even a little of this in the gyms I went to, I would still be going.

A paragon indeed.

Our dear chum Mikey from Chaturbate complimented me on increasing the number of naked guys in last week’s post, so I will be continuing to crank out extra dick pics. Gotta give the customers what they want, amirite? Let me know if it’s too much.

I hadn’t realized Austin Wolf (a long time fave) is so much bigger than Francois Sagat (another favorite) or maybe Francois is smaller. Whatever.

Love pricks that look like they go “sproing” when you slap them.

I know it’s miserably hot, but go outside and play.

I love showers outside when it’s hot.

Well, that’s serious.

Thicc, as the kids say nowadays. Do they still say that?